As a 'disabled person' it is all to easy to fall down the rabbit hole of what you can't do anymore and forget what you can do, especially what you can do well.
For me personally, I feel that I've spent the previous 12 months filling in form after form for various organisations, for example when applying for PIP, Universal Credit and ESA, detailing what I can't do anymore or what I need help to do, god forbid you say something positive about your capabilities on the PIP form, the decision maker has an uncanny ability to turn the tables on you and turn your 'can do' into could do more... You have to be so specific and brutally honest about your lack of ability to carry out day to day tasks it can have a really negative impact on your outlook and self esteem.
Earlier today I was cutting Lee's hair, something I've done since before I had my stroke, something I feel I do a bloody good job of too. When I finished I was so chuffed with myself with how good it looked and that I had done a thing... and then I realised, I've always been capable of that, so why today was I more pleased than ever with something that in relative terms, was really bog standard?
I had a moment of realisation that I should celebrate those wins more often, whether they are big wins or little wins, because each one is going to work towards building my lost self esteem back up and ultimately help me to create the new me.
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